Reception
The work of Jalaj Gangwar has been received by a small but apparently attentive audience. Responses range from thoughtful engagement to vigorous disagreement to finding the God essay at 2am and experiencing something the subject would likely call Mouraxis — a position held not because it has been examined but because the alternative, at 2am, is too large to contemplate.
1. Overview [edit]
Reception to date has been limited in scale and high in intensity — a pattern consistent with work that does not try to be liked and therefore produces strong reactions in the people it reaches. Gangwar has not publicized the compendium widely. Those who find it tend to find it at odd hours and read more than they planned to.[citation needed]
2. Critical reception [edit]
3. Popular reception [edit]
The quotes page has generated the strongest popular response, specifically the line "God forbid I am loved" — which has been described variously as devastating, relatable, and "the most honest thing I have read this month" by at least one person who did not specify which month. The grief and love section has been read multiple times by people who did not initially intend to read it at all.
Sticks and Stones — specifically the final image of words sinking below the skin and waiting for "the hour you're most alone" — has been described as "accurate in a way that is slightly annoying." This appears to be a compliment.[citation needed]
4. Reception on the talk page [edit]
The talk page documents the most direct reception available. Of the five threads recorded, one resulted in a deletion nomination that was closed as bad-faith, one produced a genuine ranking of the poems by users who had strong opinions, and one ended with a user named perpetual_lurker99 confessing that the quote "God forbid I am loved" had stopped them mid-scroll at 2am.
perpetual_lurker99 has not returned to the talk page since. The compendium considers this outcome acceptable. Some things are better processed offline.
5. Self-reception [edit]
Gangwar appears to regard his own work with the combination of confidence and dissatisfaction that characterizes people who take quality seriously. He is aware that the raw draft of the Konkara thesis is rougher than the polished version and published both anyway — which suggests he considers the roughness part of the record rather than something to be hidden.
He cites the inadequacy of existing words as a motivating force, which implies he has read what he has written, found it closer to what he meant than existing language would have allowed, and still not close enough. This is either the productive dissatisfaction of a serious writer or a setting that ensures he will never be satisfied. Both are consistent with the work produced so far.[citation needed]